Thursday, October 22, 2009


My musings have been more internal lately. My thoughts have been more about getting back to where I was before I got sick. I wonder how much of it I will be able to do. In my head, I am still same as I was, so it's a bit difficult to reconcile having the thought that I can do whatever I set out to do with the reality that this will have to be adjusted to what I am capabale of doing without pain.

I am not one of those people who relies on some sort of "power of positive thinking", that actually makes me crazy. I need to be in the reality of the now anddeal with things that way! None of this is good or bad, really, it just is.